Trust Issues

  This past week I have been reading the book of Isaiah. I love the prophets. They are books of justice more often then not, but every time I read them I am filled with an overwhelming sense of God's love for His people. I am also reminded of my own foolish pride and stupidity when I read of Israel's response to the love and protection God offered them.

  The nation of Israel is on the run from their enemies for the majority of the book of Isaiah. Instead of trusting in God, Israel turns to their enemies' enemies for help. God tells the Israelites in Isaiah 30:15 "This is what the Sovereign Lord says, "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.""

  I, like the Israelites, am often willing to put my trust in my own strength and in the physical world. Why do I find it so hard to lose myself in the arms of my infinite God? Why do I have trouble trusting the source of my existence? It is pretty safe to say I have trust issues.

  And yet God still loves me and pleads for me to come to Him. In Isaiah 30:18 He says, "Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show compassion to you. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are those who wait for Him." God still loves me: this crazy girl with trust issues. He waits for me, He rises to show me compassion. I will put my trust in Him today. I may have to learn this lesson over again tomorrow, but I will trust God today.