"But I don't Understand..."

  Because there is more of an artist than an engineer in me, I am okay with not understanding. A lack of comprehension leaves room wonder. Most of the time. And then I am thrown a curve and I enter a situation I want to understand.
  The year before last, my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. I did not understand and in all the times I screamed desperately and doubtfully at the God in which I claim to believe, I wanted to understand. What did any of us do to deserve this? In the wake of that fear and doubt, I know God more deeply then I did before. He is bigger and greater then I could have ever imagined. And while my Mom is not yet cancer-free, we have gotten good news from her doctor and the cancer is steadily leaving her body with each dose of chemotherapy.
  But I still do not understand. Is not there some other way God could have shown us His goodness? Could not He have made it hurt less? It does not end there though. All my life I have experienced things I do not understand, even after years of contemplation. But when I do not understand, I have this as my comfort: God is sovereign. There is nothing He does without a purpose, and one day He will reveal the reason He did the things He has done.

Matthew 10:28
  "So do not be afraid of them. There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made know."